deadcarno

I finally figured out there's a timer. That's what I get for not reading the manual.

Ever since coming back from the cruise I've been trying to eat healthier and exercise more. I ate like crazy there with their all you can eat buffet and I gained about 6 pounds in 8 days. So now I'm trying to lose them.

I got my Door Gym out of the basement and have been trying to do chin ups and pull ups, as well as running in the basement, or jogging/walking around the subdivision, and drinking mostly water instead of my beloved Mountain Dew. :p

I'm sick of being unhealthy, weak and fatigued so easily. I want to gain some muscle and not be so flabby. I might join a gym if I can find one close that doesn't break the bank.

Edit: I weighed myself this morning before breakfast and I'm currently 165 lbs. A general BMI says I should be between 133 and 163, so I guess mid 50s is probably good. So I could stand to lose 10 lbs or so. If I manage to gain muscle, my weight might go up a bit but that's OK since it's muscle not fat.

My nail biting is definitely due to stress of studying for exams. When I visited relatives in Syria in May for 3 weeks, I barely bit at all and now I can actually scratch my head. :p I also visited my brother in Oxford for 2 days on the way back.

My mom suggested bringing my textbooks with me, but I told her I wasn't going there to study. I probably wouldn't have nails if I had taken them. Now it's back to studying so we'll see if I can keep them long or not. After passing exams, I'll have the nervousness of looking for work. Yaaay.....

I actually went 3 weeks without getting on the internet too. Amazing. LOL I could have gone to an internet cafe, but wasn't in the mood. Well now I'm back to my regularly scheduled program. ;)

Well I've officially graduated with my associate degree now. Commencement was yesterday morning and my sister's and uncle's families came, then we had breakfast at our place. Everybody was trying to get my attention at the ceremony but I didn't even see most of them though they turned out to be pretty much in front of my face! Oops!

Then my sister took me to see a play version of Mulan which was awesome and then Mongolian BBQ for dinner, which was very sweet of her. :) I got very nice gifts, 2 wallets lol, chocolates, colognes. And even a college shirt with all graduates names on the back from my mom's friend.

And came home to a card on my desk from my mom. <3 I have to really try to be more patient with people especially her. I feel like a horrible jerk, when I snap at her and stuff.

Monday I'm off to visit relatives overseas for 3 weeks, (whom I have not seen for 5 years) then at the end of June a 1-week Alaskan cruise with my sister's family! Yay!

Then... back to studying! *horror* :p

They don't have the Mr. Z beef jerky at Dollar Tree! Maybe nobody was buying or something. ACO hardware still has it but it's double the price. Still a good deal though.

On a more minor note, (ha ha) I failed my Cisco test today. I expected I would. I've been having lots of trouble focusing on studying for it. The problem is I don't really care about Cisco. I studied it out of desperation.  I looked through the whole college catalog and nothing excited me at all. My passion as a kid was video games and that took a nose dive some years ago. I thought maybe something would come to fill the void, but nothing has, and everything I think of doing to replace it just doesn't appeal at all. Having a life with no passions at all is hard.

And sad/pathetic. Not a single thing in life really excites me anymore. What little gaming I do now, is more out of boredom than interest.

When you have passion and excitement for what you study and work at, it makes it easier to get through the hard parts. When you don't give a damn, everything is like an uphill climb.... with a 100 lbs strapped to your back.

All I can do is study and retake it again sometime.

Edit: Too much jerky at once makes for a stiff and popping jaw!

I think sometimes I come across too strongly online. Sometimes I get attached to people when we're having a good conversation or I feel we can relate. Then I interact with them too much, and I think I creep them out and they back off.

I think it might have to do with the fact that I don't interact much offline or talk much. So I feel the urge to get things off my chest online, but I overdo it and unintentionally spook people or come across as stalkerish. To anyone I've done this to, I'm sorry.

Maybe I'll just post on my LJ more often instead.  That way I express myself all I want on my own space, instead of on somebody else's.

I already ate a bag of Mr. Z! So much for self restraint!

I'll probably down another one watching Family Matters tonight! Since I'm eating junk already, I should've gotten some pop.

I just found the cheapest beef jerky ever. Or at least one of the cheapest. It's Mr. Z brand. It's your typical hard, tough, chewy store jerky, not like the tasty soft stuff you can get at places that make it fresh daily. If you're used to that, you'll find that the store kind will have the texture of leather. Not that I regularly eat leather or anything. :p

But then most store brands are the same way, and they're expensive! So it's no better or worse tasting than most of the rest I've tried.

I first found it for $2 at ACO Hardware, then $1 today at Dollar Tree. It's 4 oz so I can get 1lb of the stuff for $4. WooT!!!!! It's even cheaper than Walmart which has 16oz for $10 or so.

Now I just have to exercise restraint in buying the stuff only occasionally, and not eating a whole pound in one day! :)

I never really used to watch Family Matters much, but lately I've been watching a lot at nighttime. I'm half way through season 5, as well as the series overall. I'm a big fan of slapstick of Urkel is good, and Waldo is sooo clueless....

I've also been going to sleep earlier. Well relatively speaking at least. Like 1:30-2am. :p

My date for the first Cisco exam is March 26th. That's not much time. Gotta keep going on that.

Now that I'm done with classes, I have to start studying for the CCNA exam. I can't goof off forever!

Yay!!! Lets go kill a walmart employee so we can buy cheap crap!!! Woohoo!!!

Whoever in the crowd began the pushing needs their asses kicked. Definitely a Black Friday.

I'm feeling shocked and hollow at the moment. It doesn't seem real.

It so strange looking at the post I made in October asking her how she was.

I wish things could've been different. :(

I passed with a B+ on my third class and I'm happy Obama won. So feeling pretty good right now!

I'm listening to Tornado Man's theme from Megaman 9 on endless repeat and I can't get enough of it!

It's just as good as the famous Wily's stage from MM2 as far as I'm concerned.

Well I took my final exam yesterday for my 7.5 week course and failed with a 55%. The teacher is going to let us who failed retake it tomorrow, but he's going to average out the grades of the two. So if I want to pass the class I have to get an 85% tomorrow. *gulp*

Otherwise, I'm going to have to wait till Fall to retake it and delay graduation which would suck.

I hope I don't flunk again.

(I need to stop making all of my entries about school and grades! How boring.)

Edit: I retook it and got an average of 69.5%. I need a 70%. So I don't know if he'll round up to 70 or not.

Everyone has fears, but I'm too scared to even face mine. I feel like crawling under my bed and never coming out again.

I feel like such a... I don't even know what to call it. Wimp, chicken? I was thinking, during lecture, (again) about work after graduation and how it scares the shit out of me, instead of paying attention to the professor. Daydreaming during class isn't going to help any.

But I won't have to worry about work, if I flunk the class because I'm not focused!

Also at the store tonight I paid for a 2 liter of pop, but only took one bag, I think the cashier put it in a seperate bag. Unless it's in the car somwhere. I hate it when I forget stuff like that.

*HUUUUUUUGS everyone*

I got a B- in the computer science class I was freaking out about for the past week. I passed. I don't have to retake it. My GPA didn't go up, but only went down by .01.

*BIG sigh of relief*

Now my heart can beat at it's regularly scheduled program again.

:)